It’s been a while since I’ve posted a TMI post. Truth is I’ve been busy. Taking the time to write anything with too much thought has just not made it to the top of the priority list. But in taking so much time off, I kind of forgot how much I really do love to write.

Earlier this week, when I finally took the time to write things that were not work or school related, I remembered. Ideas started flowing and I didn’t want to go to bed. I wanted to just write and write.

And I did, until two in the morning.

One topic that was most on my mind was steps in relationships. I’ve been in relationships before that were rushed. I made the mistake once of letting a man move in with me two weeks after we had met. I thought I knew him and everything would turn out alright.

No surprise, it didn’t.

With ED things are the polar opposite. He is not one to rush or be rushed and I am not one to have to learn my lesson twice. From the word “go” it’s been baby steps. We started out very cautious and careful with each other. Then, it was almost like a switch went off. We both let down our guards and enjoyed one another without the suspicious eye or a guarded hearts.

It was fucking awesome.

I still remember the day when ED said to me, “I don’t think you realize just how much I love you.”

And I didn’t. At least not at first.

But now? Now I know that he is not going anywhere. I know that I am not going anywhere. I simply can’t imagine my life without him. The guard is down and I love this safe feeling I have when I am with him.

So what is the next not-so-baby step for us?

Moving in together.

Not tomorrow, or next month, but soon enough. It’s been almost four years since I rushed in and lived with a man. This is different. This is calculated, this is planned. It may not sound romantic, but it is better. It’s two people in love who just don’t want to spend any more time apart.

Blogfully yours,

Summer

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